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Sometimes you have to bury your feelings, try to forget the possibilities and just get on with life. That’s me right now, focusing on work not on feelings. There are cup cakes to bake, decorate and deliver. I’m working alone today, Cheryl was having a well deserved day off after the holiday rush, the radio is tuned to an active rock station as I scream along with Foo Fighters.
Screaming is good but even the radio station is against me as the song changes and I end up singing plaintively about love. It’s melodramatic and it’s not how I feel but I sing like it is. So of course I end up thinking about West and the Discussion because that was full of melodrama. Not ours, his, his past. He told me how he once dated another teacher and how his ex-wife and her friends, including Miss Green, spread rumours and lies about her and basically bullied her into leaving the school. So after West had been seeing leaving my house, he’d panicked. He said he didn’t want the same thing to happen to me so he kept his distance. Until last night.
Which had changed nothing really. He still had a vengeful ex-wife and gossiping work colleagues. And he insisted it was just spite, that she wasn’t still in love with him. She was angry over their break up but he didn’t go into detail about it. I didn’t blame him, we barely knew each other. I wasn’t going to tell him why my marriage failed wither, not at this early point in our… thing. Which may very well be a no thing now.
After West had explained I’d been understanding and appreciative of his discretion. I’d told him that I wasn’t sure what would happen next and he had agreed. He’d held me and we’d fallen asleep then like the last time I’d slept in his arms he woke me with his hands, his lips. We hadn’t spoken a word, soft breaths and broken moans the only language we needed. It was different than before yet the same. The same passion and connection but the intensity was off the charts. There were no teasing words, no dirty talk, and it felt like goodbye.
The next time I woke he was gone and I was running late. I managed to get caught up, was nearly ready to do my deliveries. Then I’d treat to myself to a BLT and an iced coffee for lunch before I came back to clean up and prep for the next day. Then it would be home for a quiet dinner, an early night, before I was back at work.
Would that be my life from now on? Cupcakes every day, my daughter every other week, seeing West at school functions and pretending we were strangers. It wasn’t a bad life, in fact it was pretty good. I owned and ran my business how I wanted to, I had a good relationship with my ex-husband, a wonderful daughter, great family and friends. I didn’t need more, I might like it, want it even but I didn’t need it. I needed my daughter to be happy, my business to be successful. They were my priorities and it was time for me to forget the hot teacher and focus on them. I could do this…
July 13, 2017 at 12:22 pm
I was stupidly excited to see this pop up in my email today. I love how her mind wandered from subject to subject seamlessly. I doubt very much she can forget the hot teacher… I couldn’t.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:33 pm
I love that you were excited! Sorry it wasn’t more worthy though. I doubt she’ll forget too, but she can pretend…
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July 13, 2017 at 12:37 pm
It was worthy, I loved it.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:22 pm
I want to be sad about this but at the same time I completely understand where she’s coming from. So tough.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:34 pm
So glad to hear you say that Nel. I’m not sure if this is the end for Sascha and West, only time will tell…
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July 13, 2017 at 12:38 pm
I hope it isn’t but it in this moment, it sounds like it is. We shall see.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:42 pm
I wanted to give a little closure. Having three stories waiting for updates was a bit much for me lol 🙂
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July 13, 2017 at 12:43 pm
Well I certainly appreciate it. Whatever direction you choose to go, we always look forward to content from you. 🙂
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July 13, 2017 at 12:41 pm
I choose to remain optimistic.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:27 pm
This is internal conflict at it’s best, it makes for an unforgettable love story.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:38 pm
Thank you, so glad you enjoyed it.
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July 13, 2017 at 12:45 pm
True love isn’t easy, when you have to fight for it, it makes it more worthwhile. Perhaps the lovely Sascha needs to step up, be strong and not let those women steal her man with jealous bullying. I vote for a crazy plot twist.
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July 14, 2017 at 11:36 am
Very well written!
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July 14, 2017 at 12:14 pm
Thank you!
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